Why won’t I get on with my life?

Status Quo

Here I am, 40 days and an incredible 4 views after my first post. This is me in a nutshell. Some things, even though I enjoy them, I will procrastinate. Like writing blog posts. I guess thats my biggest flaw. I’m doing the same with my life, putting it on hold until I finish school, save up some money and move to the City of Angels. My current status quo involves a lot of gaming, reading, watching movies and TV series (currently Archer and Battlestar Galactica, both fantastic yet vastly incomparable). I have a sparse social life with diminishing contact with friends. And you know what? I rather enjoy it. Not because I have deluded myself into thinking that this is what I want in life and that I’m happy as can be. I enjoy it because I know to a certain degree what my future will be like. And believe me, it will be fantastic! “How do you know that?” you may ask. Because I will not settle for less! The alternative is not an option.

I despise the thought of “normal life”. Grow up and settle for a 9-5 job for the next 30-40 years, with puny two-three weeks of vacation. Settle for a wife, who is not at all like you imagined when you were younger. Get some kids and count the days to retirement. All this because it’s what one is “supposed to do,” It’s what everybody does. If this were to be my life, I suspect I would be one of the “He had it all. A good job, wife and children. But then he unexpectedly committed suicide. No one understands why,” guys somewhere down the line. This is sadly the reality for a major part of the human population (the first part, not the suicide part). Sure, they are probably happy, some of them; of course there are a lot of people for whom this is an optimal way of life (again, the first part, not the suicide part). But a substantial part of them have deluded themselves to think that this is as good as it gets. This is happiness. Great for them, I say. Ignorance is bliss. But if you really want to be happy, you can’t do what you’re “supposed to do”. You must find out what makes you happy and do that. Whatever it takes. Or you can take the safe route and live a life of mediocrity or worse. Your choice.

Later

“Later” is a dangerous word. There are two ways people use it. One of them is as an excuse to never do it. You just say it to get out of the current situation. The other way to use it is to really mean it. You really will do it later and you know it. When it comes to life goals it is important to use the latter, but you have to really be sure. Otherwise your goal will end up as a dream you once had, instead of one of your achievements. Of course it is best to not use “later” at all. The sooner you start, the sooner you will succeed and the greater the chance for success will be.

“But why don’t you start now? Get on with your life, I mean,” you may ask. That’s a good question. First of all, I’m stuck in a wet, cold, depressing, windswept town. Especially so nowadays, throughout the long winter. Don’t get me wrong, it’s been a great place to grow up in. And I know some pretty awesome people here, but I’ve just grown tired of it all through the years. Nothing to do but, in the sporadic cases where I am social, sitting around talking with the same people, consuming entertainment, waiting for better times. It’s just so… mediocre. I really need a change of scenery. So here I am, stuck without the will to do anything until I finish school and save up enough money to move.

How about you, have you completed your goals? Will you complete your goals?